Playing the startup game with Geometrify, probably going mad

Pushing the limits of my mental health

Past 3 weeks have been crazy. Crazy depressing and stressful, trying to push Geometrify forwards, in a rushed mad man craze feeling of trying to reach a goal of releasing our new demo and crowdfunding campaign on 11.11.15, in order to match with the release of GeoKone on 11.11.11 (ha, that post has 11 comments)

And then realizing all this was just some imaginary deadline we had setup for ourselves, and that our direction is not exactly aligned on what is possible to implement right now. Gah.

I have been driving myself to the limits, drinking too much black tea, coffee, then needing something to calm me down after that, and continuing this vicious cycle until I was completely exhausted and not even remembering who I am anymore. This completely drained me physicall and mentally, and I was ready to give up the whole thing.

But then suddenly, I saw something in the midst of it all ..

A diamond shines in the darkness

In this self developed chaos shit storm, a diamond of perfection shone in the midst of it all:

Diamond in the Center

Diamond in the Center

Looking at it, just observing, and using GeoKone while being in the darkness I could see it more clearly. GeoKone has helped to suppress depression, to channel my self in the darkest moments so many times that I really wish I could somehow bring this program to the masses better. There I was again, creating art with GeoKone, feeling like shit, when suddenly I could see beauty coming out of darkness, forming slowly, reminding me that there is always a solution, even if I’m not seeing it in the middle of all the crap flying around.

Not sure if this can be seen only by travelling to the centre of it all, going through all that chaos around it first, or is there an easier way maybe ? Who knows. I dont know. I can read a thousand books, hear a thousand stories, and none are the one I am travelling. There are no ready answers or solutions to those walking their own path.

Startup mantras

I hope I don’t have to do this again ever. So that I might learn when to just keep calm, and focus on the task at hand, and not project into the future to fulfill some deadline that might as well be total bullshit in 2 weeks.

Fail fast, fail often. If you fail at first, try again. These are the mantras repeated in the startup world, and I can see now why. This has been a total surrender trip since 2012 december when I left my dayjob and pursued GeoKone full time.

My psyche has been put to the test, still working alone as programmer on Geometrify. Not having anybody to talk to on the technical aspect daily, not having anybody to wait at the workplace for me, or not anybody to even expect me to be there at time. It can get very depressing.

And still, the comments from people who have tried our first demo (which will be released at some point for the Oculus DK1, hopefully) like “most interesting usage of VR”, or “most deep experience of geometry”, or the mind baffling comment after a private demo “I realized what happens after I die”, these keep me going.

Glimpses to another world

Yeah, somebody saw glimpses of what happens when he dies by just trying our demo.

Think about that for a while. Let it sink in.

The possibilities with this project are endless. And yet, how to communicate this what we are buildling, seems impossible. There are no words to describe it. It slips through the rationality and structure of words. Like a spiritual experience, it is really difficult to share.

And this has been our challenge for the whole time we have been developing Geometrify Experience. How to communicate this to people, when it is really personal, can be meditative, immersive, but can also not be meditative, can just be annoying for minority of people trying it out, or it can be something completely different for each person.

Catching small fish

I think we have been trying to catch a too big of a fish, we now need really to narrow down our grids and focus on something that can be also implemented, and explained, and still utilizing our top of the line geometry engine, which might I say, is getting really nice.

I’m starting to get the hang of C++11 finally, and OpenGL too, so things are starting to look good on the technical side.

Still, no funding, no coding partners, although I have help from many people now, and we are now an officially registered Co-Op in Finland now, so a lot of progress happening also!

I am hopeful to continue working. Fail fast, fail often, get up, grind up, fuck that shit up and show them that following our hearts something truly extraordinary can be achieved!

Ready to get up again!

Ready to get up again!

Now this is inDigiNeous, signing off again!

Natural High from Using GeoKone.NET ^_^

Lately I’ve been realizing what GeoKone.NET actually is and why it is so addictive in some senses. I many times have noticed that when I create geometry with GeoKone, my mind is being surprised by the results and it receives a prize in the form of endorphines or something, the feeling is like discovering Something Completely New within somewhere that it should not be, interweaved between the different connecting geometries, hidden, waiting for me to unravel it.

From this ..

From this ..

GeoKone Is A Tool For Expressing Energy

To This.. GeoKone Is A Tool For Expressing Energy!


When exploring these seemingly simple geometrical shapes, with GeoKone you can almost like play a game of seek and hide, by zooming in and out of the formations, changing parameters and seeing how they connect for completely new connections. It’s like a constant Aha!” feeling in the brain, like the mind is seeing new things that weren’t there before and it brings a child like joy to me to explore these forms.

Geometry Makes New Connections

Geometry Makes New Connections

I have witnessed and heard about this same feeling with other people so many times now, that I am really happy to see that others beside me also see this effect. It is almost intoxicating, and in some senses it is, as how I see is that our brains create new connections somehow when they are given Natural Geometry to explore. It is like connecting the neural networks withing us, connecting the dots to create new connections and see things in a new way. Same as with music connecting new things, also visuals can do the same thing, especially if we are expressing ourselves in the process.

This can create almost like a intoxicated effect in the user, like my dear companion Anna said that she felt almost drunk from the effect.

I also found this Blog Post from Young, Broke and Awesome describing the effects:

“There are a lot of things that provoke my curiosity, but nothing works better than geometry. I love watching shapes evolve into beautiful patterns and designs. It is amazing how much beauty erupts from simple inputs and small changes of variables. In the midst of my computer explorations of the day, I stumbled upon this awesome little app called “GeoKone” after I googled “Geometry generator”. I became intoxicated by the program. I made so many different shapes and patterns in a matter of seconds using simple commands.”

I would love to understand this effect more and where it comes from, and what it feels like. So, if you have noticed the same kind of effects, of achieving some kind of natural high or otherwise altered state of mind while using GeoKone, I would be happy to hear. Please leave a comment here or e-mail me at Sakari AT PsiTriangle D0T NET (unscramble this)!

Thank you!

Get Naturally Intoxicated!

Now go to http://app.GeoKone.NET, create Geometry and get Naturally Intoxicated ^_^ !